A Beginner’s Understanding of Ogham Divination, Part Eighteen

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

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Ogham Ur

Ogham Ur ~ photo by i.macy

Although Ur [or Ura], the Ogham alphabet for Heather does not come at the end of our series, it is still the Ogham of death and finality.  One might think that would be the Ogham for Yew, but it is not.  It is the third vowel of the Ogham and it is not a birth tree.  It is, however, the Ogham for Summer Solstice which recently came round in June.  You can find out more about the magickal uses for Heather in my past blogs, The Magick of Heather or From the Wortcunners Cabinet – Heather.  Keep in mind the uses and representations for the actual plant may be quite different from what the Ogham itself represents.

As I say, this Ogham deals with death and finality and grieving, but it also deals with “deaths” which are metaphorical and the passing away of circumstances or situations in life.  In other words, when you draw the Ur stave it does not necessarily mean a physical death.  And always remember that when you do a three-stave draw you must consider the other two Ogham staves and what they mean.  In drawing the single stave, which is what most people do as a daily reading, then you must look deeply into the meaning of this single stave for what you need to know.  More often than not, the metaphorical meaning will be what will be your answer in this case.  Still, know this – something must end.

Representations:  Changes/Transitions, Dying, Death, Finality, Grieving

Ogham Letter:  U

Number:  18

Colour:  White, Amber

Tarot:  Death

Animals:  Bees, Red Grouse, Lark

Plant:  Mistletoe

Divination Meaning:  When drawing this Ogham stave in a single reading, you must ask yourself, “What in my life is passing away?  What must I leave behind?”  Of course, you must take the time to really look within when you draw Ur… there may be situations or people from which or whom you know you must withdraw yet it is so easy to feel comfortable enough with these situations or people and you never really want to think of how badly they may be affecting you or your well-being.  Now is the time to address this, no questions asked.  You may already know of what or whom you must leave behind so that you may grow.  Now is the time to act upon this knowledge.  No forest can grow without periodic pruning back of what no longer serves it.

How to Mend the Problem:  Of the cthonic current, Ur literally means graves, burials, and earth. Land spirits are part of this current. This current means to let go of what has passed and to move forward. Remember that physical death is not the only kind… relationships, businesses, hopes, and  ideals all die.  In the oceanic current, Ur brings about ghosts/spirits of the dead… you may be in need of doing a bit of ancestry and necromancing.  I’m of the belief that our ancestors live within us and speak to us… are we listening? Maybe it is time you do.  The celestial current is one of inevitability.  Your passed on loved one[s] may be weighing heavily on your mind. Perhaps it is time to honour them in some way.

And, perhaps the drawing of Ur simply means you must get rid of something which drags you down so that you can move forward without the weight of something which no longer serves you.  It could be a toxic relationship. It could be a few extra pounds you have been wanting to shed. It might be articles of clothing or things you have hoarded which only depress you now.  “Articles” of any kind can harbour bad energies.  Maybe you just need to do a good clear out!  Only you can, with your intuition and through meditation, understand best what Ur will mean for you.

Death card

The Death Card ~ photo by i.macy

The Death card in tarot is the perfect fit for Ur.  A card of endings, change, transformation, and transition [upright].  Like Ur, the Death card has always had a bad rap when it came to being drawn for many feared they were about to be lying by the wall soon!  Not often, I would assure you, does either mean so.  The Death card symbolises the end of a major phase or aspect of your life that you realise is no longer serving you, opening the possibility of something far more valuable and essential. You must close one door to open another. You need to put the past behind you and part ways, ready to embrace new opportunities and possibilities. It may be difficult to let go of the past, but you will soon see its importance and the promise of renewal and transformation. If you resist these necessary endings, you may experience pain, both emotionally and physically, but if you exercise your imagination and visualise a new possibility, you allow more constructive patterns to emerge.

You can catch up the first seventeen blogs, Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six, Part Seven, Part Eight, Part Nine, Part Ten, Part Eleven, Part Twelve, Part Thirteen, Part Fourteen, Part Fifteen, Part Sixteen, and Part Seventeen by clicking on these respectively.

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A Beginner’s Understanding of Ogham Divination, Part Seventeen

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

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Ogham Ohn

Ogham Ohn ~ photo by i.macy

Ohn is the Ogham mark for the needle-bearing, non-conifer tree, Gorse, or Furze, from old Celtic dialect.  Truthfully, Gorse is considered more of a hedge plant than a tree, although they can grow to about 15 feet in height if not pruned back.  Ohn is also the Ogham for the Spring Equinox sabbat of Beltane.  It is not a Celtic Birth Tree Ogham.  Folklore has it that Ohn/Gorse is effective against faerie mischief.

Representations:  Fertility, Hope, Prosperity, and Protection

Ogham Letter:  O

Number:  17

Colour:  Gold, Yellow

Tarot: The Chariot

Animals:  Bees, Cormorant, Hare, Harrier Hawk

Plant:  Heather

Divination Meaning:  When you pull the Ohn Ogham, the question you must ask yourself is, “Where is my journey taking me? How shall I follow my path?”  A hint:  First look at the part of your life you’re in.  Are you young? Middle-aged? Older? When Ohn appears in your reading, it can indicate that you need to examine the direction of your life… maybe you’re about to take a trip; it can indicate emotional journeys such as changes of mind or heart. And, Ohn can also indicate if you need to make a spiritual journey such as meeting with ancestors in the Otherworld or finally meeting your Spirit Guardian.  Use your intuition to know where your journey lies. If you are to embark on a physical journey, Ohn is a magick amulet for you as physical protection; it is also well to have on hand for spiritual and emotional journeys.

How to Mend the Problem:  If you find physical travel is ahead for you, tend to mending any faults with your personal vehicle if you plan to use it.  Plan your trip to the best of your ability to minimise delays at airports and reduce travel times by taking the most direct but safest routes.  If you are called to go on a spiritual journey, it is always wise to first meet and form a relationship with your Spirit Guardian and animal if you have not done already.  Again, you must prepare for the journey.  And, if your journey is an emotional one, prepare yourself by committing yourself to being courageous… use talismans to this effect, if you feel necessary, and know that you will be deeply affected, however, it is a necessary journey to lay to rest the thing[s] which trouble your heart most.

the Chariot

Shadowscapes The Chariot ~ photo by i.macy

The tarot card I find is most relatable is The Chariot.  Notice, no matter which deck you use, the Warrior is upright, brave, and victorious.  He/she holds no reins… he is in control through the strength of his will and mind.  Although her beasts are pulling in different directions [in my case, a pair of Unicorns lead the way in my Shadowscapes deck], the charioteer uses her willpower and sheer resolve to steer the chariot forward in the direction she wants.  This is exactly what you wish to do in your journey as well.

You can catch up the first sixteen blogs, Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six, Part Seven, Part Eight, Part Nine, Part Ten, Part Eleven, Part Twelve, Part Thirteen, Part Fourteen, Part Fifteen, and Part Sixteen by clicking on these respectively.

Many thanks for reading my blog.  If you have enjoyed it or have learned from it, please share via the social media buttons below.  I love comments also and respond as promptly as I can.  And, I very much enjoy a like for my efforts!  Warmest blessings to those whom wander this way x


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Condolences to El Paso and Dayton

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

Instagram:  @thewandcarver

white candles

white candles image from ecosia.org

My empathic heart cries for you… the victims, of course, but moreover the ones left behind who will have to carry on without their loved ones and friends.  I do know how hard that is because in our own family we had a “senseless shooting” in the early 60’s which involved the loss of my uncle.  It was not in a “mass shooting”, however, all shootings are senseless in my mind.  There are no more words I can give you.  There are never “the right words” in these cases.  “Thoughts and prayers”, the most useless of so-called sympathies, fall upon deaf ears for we know, the victim’s families, that it is just lip-service to hopefully make us feel cared for.  It doesn’t even touch the sides.

When the news reports came onto the BBC, I couldn’t help but burst into tears.  I don’t know you personally but that doesn’t matter.  My heart broke a little more, as it always does when I hear of these things.  And then, I get angry because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt how well good, secure gun laws works; look at Japan for a shining example.  In 2015, the entirety of that year, resulted in twenty-three [23] gun deaths in Japan.  Yes, you read that correctly.  In the US for the same year, there were over 37,000 gun deaths and many mass shootings.  In fact, 2015 has been called the year of mass shootings.  The difference is that Japan has amongst the stiffest gun laws in the world.  You may only own a rifle, no handguns, and certainly NO military-grade weaponry.  Not only does the person seeking a permit endure many background checks and a two-year waiting period, but so does his or her immediate family as well as strict psychological testing for all.  In the US, from what I have read [and gun laws vary significantly from state to state] in many cases you can pitch up to a gun shop, buy a gun, wait three days, come back and pick it up.  That is insane.  I have a feeling many of you in the US are feeling that as well by now.

When the recent mosque shootings in New Zealand happened, Prime Minister Jacinda Ardern shut down any glorification of the shooter by not speaking his name and then said the gun laws would be changed post haste and they were.  But when the people of the US try to get anything changed, their NRA – beloved by all whom have arsenals of weapons of all kinds – try to gaslight the victim’s families into thinking it is their faults that this happened.  And, of course, they love to throw more guns at the situation.  Lots of school shootings? Let the kids and the teachers carry.  Shootings in the workplace? Carry.  And so on.  Is it any wonder people think of the wild west? But from what I gather, the numbers/percentages of those in favour of guns has changed in the last four years.  Around 2015 there were more in favour of guns and now, only a bit half-way through 2019, the tides are changing and depending on the day, there are about 50-50 in favour and on a good day there are more than 50% whom disfavour guns.  And, the NRA have been going through a lot of trouble of late, effectively on the brink of bankruptcy and lawsuits.  America, it is time to stick the boot in and get the laws changed.  You can do it.  And, no, I would not advocate taking away every gun… there are people who do still hunt for food.  I’m not a fan of pistols [oh Hell, I despise guns full stop but I’m not an idiot, I do know people hunt and stuff] but the British aren’t coming anymore and you can also not worry about a zombie apocalypse because you’ve got worse things to worry about and none of those require guns.  All that is needed are very strict background and mental health checks, first.  And then ban all assault/military-grade weaponry. Will this completely stop gun violence? No.  Will it stop mass-shootings? Yes.  Will the yearly death-by-gun numbers drop significantly? Yes, Yes, Yes. My ultimate idea means re-writing your 2nd amendment to clarify how gun ownership is not a God-given right but a practical privilege which should be upheld with honour and respect for human and animal life.

Perhaps I have no right to weigh in on such a hot-button subject.  But as I have a very high regard for the sanctity of life, and I feel connected to everyone, and I foresee a future of us all working together for the common and greater good of all species, yes, I feel I do have a right.  I’m sure I’m not the only one, either.  El Paso and Dayton [and the myriad of other cities which have had mass-shootings over the years], this is all I have to give – my ideas and my heart.  It seems the only practical thing to give as I’m not there to give you hugs and flowers and hold your hands.  I can only keep you, like the others, in my heart.  It will be hard for you, but I wish it didn’t have to be.  You will grieve and feel alone, but you’re not.  You have a world full of people mourning with you.  We care.  We can only hope you feel the energies of love we send.  Warmest blessings to everyone x



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Happy Lughnasadh 2019

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

Instagram:  @thewandcarver

spirit of lughnasadh 2

Lughnasadh ~ image from ecosia.org

Unless you are a brand-new fledgling witchy, I am sure most of you know what Lughnasadh, or Lammas, is all about.  Obviously, it is the first harvest of the year and that in and of itself has always been reason for much merriment amongst the Pagan farming communities… but it is also a time of joy for every farming community, whether Pagan or Christian or otherwise.  That is, if the harvest was good and not ruined by too much rain or not enough rain.  We shall operate based on a good harvest for our purposes.

Most of us probably aren’t farmers apart from perhaps our wee herb gardens or flowers.  Some of us may have been reared in a farming family or had friends whose parents/grandparents were farmers.  I would say a good deal of us at the very least understand the importance of having an excellent harvest each year as this provides our sustenance.  In the early days of planting crops, our ancestors knew how to keep the land from “running out” of nutrients in the soil and how best to keep their lands fit for purpose by rotating crops and allowing the earth to rest between growing seasons.  Only in more recent history have farmers forgotten this important thing and have overworked their lands and we are all paying the price.  But did you know that the ancestors also had other ways of ensuring a good harvest each year?  You could indeed call it a kind of magick!

For instance, in the Shetland Islands, farmers believed that grain harvesting should only take place during a waning moon. They also believed this about the fall potato crop, and the cutting of peat.

At Lughnasadh, calves are weaned, and the first fruits are ripe, such as apples and grapes. In some Irish counties, it was believed farmers had to wait until Lughnasadh to start picking these fruits, or bad luck would befall the community.

In England, “John Barleycorn” represents the suffering of indignities, attacks and death that corresponds to the various stages of barley cultivation, such as reaping and malting. And any of you of an age will remember no less, the 1970 album by Traffic call John Barleycorn Must Die.  Then of course, many of us have studied the 1782 poem by Robert Burns in school, perhaps.  But Mr Barleycorn did not just come to life in 1782, for there was a Scottish manuscript from the 16th century mentioning the famous sacrificial grain.  For let us not forget, without Mr Barleycorn’s demise could we live. Nor could we make beer and whiskey 😊 This is a good time to raise a glass to Mr Barleycorn!

Essex Terret Corndolly

Essex Terret by Renata Edge 

This is also the time for corn dollies! Where the corn dolly began is anybody’s guess, but the most prolific and intricately made ones have come from the farms of Great Britain for many, many years.  They were also known as “corn mothers”.  The pagans believed the “spirit of the corn” resided in their wheat fields – note here that the word “corn” did not refer to actual corn or “maize” as it is known in North America, but corn referred to the wheat grain in the British Isles. Hence, when you mention corn dollies to an American, they will visualise the kind made with the husks of corn/maize, rather than the braided shafts of wheat and straw as are custom in the UK.  Back to the story though, when the wheat was harvested, the early pagans believed the Spirit of the Corn was made homeless, therefore they would fashion a kind of “doll” out of the last sheaf of wheat and leave it in the field for the corn spirit to inhabit until winter was over and replanting began. And, every area of the UK has its own particular design.  If you are an older person in the UK and have been active in wheat farming, you may be able to recognise the corn dolly from one county to the next on sight.  Each one is special, and the design is handed down from generations in most cases.  I find they are wonderful to add to my Lughnasadh altar and if you are interested in having one for your altar, you can either learn to make one or you can purchase one.

Lughnasadh is a fabulous time to celebrate with friends and to make new ones. If you live near the eastern part of the UK, here is a celebration you may be interested in at Kallima Wellbeing Centre, Basildon, the Lammas/Lughnasadh Moot 2019.

If you don’t have a celebration in your area [although it would be hard to imagine!] you can celebrate at home quite well.  However, you choose to celebrate, I hope you have a very Happy Lughnasadh/Lammas and warmest blessings to you and yours. x



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A Beginner’s Understanding of Ogham Divination, Part Sixteen

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

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Ogham Ailm

Ogham Ailm ~ photo by i.macy

The Silver Fir is the main tree for which the Ogham Ailm represents, however, in some other circles the Elm tree is also marked by Ailm.  To confuse the issue further, Silver Fir is not mentioned in my first blog [see Sources below the link] regarding the Celtic Birth Tree Calendar and the representation of each tree’s Ogham alphabet.  One chart uses Pine in the place of Fir. The Ailm Ogham, all the more confusingly, represents all three trees:  Elm, Fir, and Pine.  For our purposes, should we create an Ogham set for ourselves from the twenty woods needed, it seems the prevailing wood for Ailm by the Druids is Silver Fir.  Ailm is the Ogham for the 23rd of December, the beginning of Yule.

While Silver Fir is not, as stated, a Birth Tree, it is called “The Birth Tree”.  It is used in protection spells for mothers giving and having given birth.  One of the ways is by burning the needles in the birthing room.  An excellent way to bring this into the 21st century is to create a loose incense with the Fir [or Pine] needles to burn on a charcoal block. Fir is also one of the Nine Sacred Woods.

Representations:  Far-sightedness, Beginnings/Endings, Pregnancy/Birth, Understanding, Intuition, Psychics,  Manifestation, Epiphany

Ogham Letter:  A

Number:  16

Colour:  Piebald – spotted/black/white/speckled

Tarot:  The Tower

Animals:  Lapwing

Plant:  Fir,  Pine, Elm

Divination Meaning:  You must question yourself again… What work am I starting? How am I being initiated?  Ailm is the Ogham of beginnings and endings combined. As one comes into this life, so is one born into the next.  You must study the part[s] of your life going through transition and look ahead into your own future.  You will be able to see what is beyond and what is coming.   When Ailm appears in divination, a new thing is coming into being.  Someone you know may be about to give birth, or you are beginning a new project; you are full of excitement and creativity, an epiphany is about to happen. It could also indicate that your spirituality is about to experience a great growth spurt. But no matter what is coming, you must realise that it is going to happen.  How it happens is largely up to you as to whether you will drag your feet and make it painful or whether you will open yourself willingly to the change and go through it with grace.

How to Mend the Problem:  The chthonic current of Ailm is life and death… the oceanic current of Ailm is being on the threshold of something new and exciting; being on the brink of discovery – on the verge of the “aha moment”.  You are standing at the threshold of a very important passage in your life.  You may be about to give birth to a baby… or perhaps a brand-new idea… or you will learn that you have acquired the spirituality you have worked so dedicatedly for.  Perhaps you will make a discovery which can help all of mankind.  Here, you and you alone must see into your own future and decide what it will be. Your intuition is going to be necessary.  The Universe feels you are ready for the passage.  You would do well to trust the Universe and in yourself for you have learned all you need to know at this point to make this passage. But do understand, the passage itself cannot be rushed, nor can you stop it; this is not in your hands.  Take your time and savour it. It will be worth it.

One further note, if you are pulling three staves in a reading, and pull the Ur stave along with Ailm as one of your three,  it will have to do with Death… and do remember that to pull the Ur stave, just as with the Death card in tarot does not always, and rarely means, physical death. Always make note of where it falls…Past, Present, or Future.

The Tower

The Tower ~ photo by i.macy

The tarot card with goes so well with Ailm is The Tower.  Of that I’m aware, there are no “upright” or “reverse” meanings in the Ogham.  Your stave will represent both sides of the coin, as it were.  Your foresight into your situation will tell you whether the meaning is fabulous or not so much.  Still, as previously mentioned, the Universe feels you are ready for this.  The Tower card in the Upright position means to expect the unexpected – massive change, upheaval, destruction and chaos. It may be a divorce, death of a loved one, financial failure, health problems, natural disaster, job loss or any event that shakes you to your core, affecting you spiritually, mentally and physically. There’s no escaping it. Change is here, but trust me, it’s for your Highest Good. In the Reversed state, The Tower suggests that you are undergoing a significant personal transformation and upheaval. This differs from the experience of the upright Tower where the change is often because of external circumstances and may even feel forced upon you. After a Tower experience, you will grow stronger, wiser and more resilient as you develop a new perspective on life you did not even know existed. These moments are necessary for your spiritual growth and enlightenment, and truth and honesty will bring about a positive change, even if you experience pain and anxiety throughout the process.

The Ailm Ogham does the same for you.

You can catch up the first fifteen blogs, Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six, Part Seven, Part Eight, Part Nine, Part Ten, Part Eleven, Part Twelve, Part Thirteen, Part Fourteen, and Part Fifteen by clicking on these respectively.

Many thanks for reading my blog.  If you have enjoyed it or have learned from it, please share via the social media buttons below.  I love comments also and respond as promptly as I can.  And, I very much enjoy a like for my efforts!  Warmest blessings to those whom wander this way x


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A Year, Tears, and Furever Love

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

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Chili June 2017 blog pic

My Chili, 2017 ~ photo by i.macy

Alright… I admit I feel a bit weepy.  But then, wouldn’t anybody?  Look at that face! She was… is… a diamond. And she shined like a diamond… no, I won’t sing the song… I miss her. I miss the best cat ever.  I miss my Chili.  Still, I do know that whilst she isn’t stretched out over me inconveniently as she could do – especially when I am trying write a blog or schedule the next day’s tweets – that she is not gone, really.  She spent her last year wanting to park herself over my heart every chance she got.  And her last three days with me… which, by the way, ended sadly exactly one year ago today…I only sat with her, cuddling her on my chest where she felt the safest.  I could not let her go into that good night alone.  Not for a minute. Because, many wouldn’t believe this, but this cat, yes, a cat, never once made me sit alone when I needed a friend.  She was always, always there for me.  It was the very, very least thing I could do for her.

She is not gone.  She is wrapped right round my heart, forever.

In my Goodbye blog to this wonderful girl  last year, I shared a few little stories about her.  The funny and cute kind.  But in this tribute, I feel I must tell some uncomfortable truths about my life to fully explain why this girl was so remarkable.  When Chili had been with me for a little over two years, the man I married a year after I got her had started knocking me about.  Don’t worry, he wasn’t my children’s father.  He happens to be the polar opposite and would never raise a hand to a woman.  But this chap I was married to at the time was a raging narcissist, gaslighter, and an overall selfish toe rag.  I didn’t know this when I married him, however.  He was all sweetness and light.  That’s how they get you, I suppose.  Enough of his shenanigans. Because he also played away… and he also liked to ring those numbers for a little chat up with some woman who probably looked no better than me but sounded like she was eighteen… he lost his job. We, in short order, lost our home.  We ended up living with his relatives but could not bring Chili because his stepmother was quite ill and needed oxygen, so cat dander was not welcomed in their home.  I had to have my children’s father keep Chili for me for a while.  Why didn’t I leave this horrible man instead? Because the usual… I believed he would change [*cough*], he had me Svengali-ed… and I was terrified of what he might do if I did leave.

So, there we stayed for the next year.  I did get to visit Chili, often as I could.  She had lost so much weight.  I worried day and night that she wouldn’t make it til I got free of Mr Git. So, I hatched a plan.  I began shifting my boxes of unpacked items into a lock up that I rented.  Mr Git thought I was simply getting rid of all my stuff.  That was the story, anyway.   Eventually, I got a little job and leased a small caravan to live in, but of course he followed me! One Saturday morning he decided to visit and knock seven bells out of me right in front of my neighbours.  Good one, Mr Git. He was promptly arrested, threw a complete tantrum as well which got him tasered and the rest as they say, is history.  I was free and my girl was back with me. Win.

Chli before hypothyroidism

Chili defo put her weight back on 🙂 ~ photo by i.macy

This episode above did not leave me in a state of wanting to dance and have parties til dawn.  Just the opposite.  I wept all the time.  I couldn’t eat.  I had suicidal thoughts….yes, I know…I don’t believe it either, now.  But at the time, I was an undeniable mess.  Then, this little cat… she would sleep right beside me every night, as closely as she could.  She would wake me every morning with nose kisses and eyelid kisses.  If I didn’t open my eyes right away, she would just stand and peer down at me for as long as it took.  And, I joke not… when I finally opened my eyes, I could swear she was smiling.  When I had a crying jag she would put a paw on my arm and sit patiently beside me or curl up in my lap, nudging my hand with her head so I would stroke her fur…it’s like she knew that by doing  that I would be soothed, and I was.  It is a medically known fact that stroking cat fur will reduce high blood pressure and calm you.  She had to have known this.  And when I was really feeling my most broken, Chili would lay on me and purr a most rousing roar of a purr.  Because, in case you didn’t know, a cat’s purrs can help heal broken bones… and hearts.  It is a medically proven fact, as well.  In fact, cats often heal themselves with their own purrs.

I would never have made it without her.

We kind of kept each other going for the next thirteen or fourteen years.  All seemed well until she began hiding away a lot.  It is the feature of a poorly cat – to hide away.  I really didn’t pay as much mind as I should have because she ate voraciously.  An ill cat won’t eat, will it? I learned when I saw how skinny my Chili had gotten and rushed her to the Vet’s that indeed, despite her voracious appetite, she was quite ill.  Hyperthyroidism.  And to top it off, she was also in renal failure.  I only thought I was a mess after the episode with Mr Git.  I was ready to fling myself off the highest mountain now!  But, funnily enough, with medication and her special diet, apart from some scary episodes here and there, my strong and loving best friend carried on almost another three full years until the wee morning hour of last 25 July.  Oh, she tried and so did I.  By the first of the three days, I knew her medication was useless, so I stopped aggravating her with it.  Of all the years of taking it, it still aggravated her last nerve to have to take it.  The very least I could do for her now was to cease and desist.  I sat with her on my chest continually, with a bowl of water that I would offer her when she seemed thirsty.  She slept a lot and I put my hand on her to make sure she still breathed, a lot.  Family came in and visited her on her last evening.  Although by now my poor girl couldn’t see, I could tell she was pleased they did.  And I held her until she said goodbye.

You are probably judging me for not having her euthanised.  I judged myself a bit over that as well.  Truth is, I couldn’t afford to and there seemed something too unnatural about all the money I had spent to keep her alive for three years and then paying almost another 400.00 to have her “put down” [like some wild animal rummaging your chicken coop!].  She was my friend.  She was family.  She deserved the best I could do in my circumstances.  Unfortunately, selling charms and wands do not make the best living so I did what I could do best for her…. I simply loved her to death.

And I have not gone one day since without telling her I love her.  It has gotten somewhat easier because I have a new friend now, Pippa, a lovely feral calico creature who my daughter and I had saved from the streets just a few months prior to Chili’s death.  I love her to bits but of course, not quite so much as I do Chili – yet.  Still, I do adore her, and she is just about as loving and kind to me as my Chili was.  I say “just about” because she is still getting her “sea legs” with me. I can tell every day that we get closer and that suits me fine.  Best of all, I feel she is completely approved by Chili because they met shortly after Pippa and her wee sprog, Freya moved in with us.  Chili was always fiercely protective of me and suffered no other cat to be near me, however, she sniffed Pippa’s nose, sat back and did not hiss at all!  And thank goodness, to Pippa’s credit, she didn’t get hissy at the Grand Madame, either 😊

Happy [?] anniversary, my beloved friend.  I’m sure wherever you are, you are still fierce.  And I know we shall see each other again in some form or another.  Either way, you are always in my heart, purring away, keeping me going.  Because that’s what we have always done for each other… furever.  xxxx

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A Beginner’s Understanding of Ogham Divination, Part Fifteen

By Isabella @TheWandCarver

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Ogham ruis

Ogham Ruis ~ photo by i.macy

We shall now delve into the mysteries of the Ogham, Ruis, which is of the Elder tree, a Celtic Birth Tree for those born between 25 November and 23 December.  The Elder tree represents the Dark Half of the year and is associated with the Crone aspect of the Triple Goddess. But the focus is on its Ogham, Ruis, which loosely means “red” from the Irish Gaelic word, “Rúad”.  And, as you will read, Ruis will make you “see red”! And, it will help you to learn not to. Those born in the Elder lunar month are very passionate.

Representations:  Passion, Jealousy, Sexuality, Guilt, Envy, Love, Love of Life, Devotion to Deity, Healing

Ogham Letter:  E

Number:  15

Colour:  Bright Red, Light Red

Tarot:  Judgement

Animals:  Black Horse, Pheasant, Raven, Rook

Plant:  Dandelion

Divination Meaning:  What am I passionate about?  How do my passions help or harm me? These are the questions one must ask themselves if they draw the Ruis Ogham.  We are now delving into the emotions that may either help or harm, depending upon their use. What happens to arouse your emotions to guilt and frenzy?  These are the symptoms of a wider desire and you must suss out the source to begin “training” them to do good or to eliminate them from your life.  You are the judge and jury.

How to Mend the Problem:  Like Passion itself, Ruis can be steeped in joy or hatred. Jealousy and Rage are part and parcel to this Ogham’s energies; however, they can be turned to passionate love as well.  This pertains to any extreme emotion you may feel you’re having a problem with.  You can turn extreme hatred into love… whatever the emotion, you can control it with the power of Ruis and your own intuition and mindfulness. However, the chthonic current of Ruis is a difficult one as most of its meanings are emotions which people find hard to face. Still, there are also positive passions found with Ruis and because of this, as we can learn from Hinduism, we can turn our anger [insert emotion of choice] into cleansing through self-reflection and examination and thereby turning a societally harmful emotion into one of social activism and a deep desire for Justice, or expressing that emotion through healing work.  Ruis gives powerful focus and energy to overcome difficulties.


Shadowscapes Judgement card ~ photo by i.macy

In examination of what Ruis means, I find the Judgement tarot card comes to mind strongly. This is because Judgement calls upon us to rise and embrace a higher level of consciousness for the service of our Highest Good.  Both Ruis and Judgement indicates that you need to make a life-changing decision, and they tend to show up when you are close to reaching a significant stage in your journey.  This is the time when you will review and re-evaluate your past experiences and have learned from them. All the pieces of the puzzle of your life are finally coming together to form one, unified picture of your life story. This integration has healed deep wounds, and you are now able to put the past behind you. You have found your absolution, having cleared any wrongdoings or regrets, and releasing any guilt or sadness about the past. This purging process will leave you refreshed and ready to take on any new challenges.

You can catch up the first fourteen blogs, Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six, Part Seven, Part Eight, Part Nine, Part Ten, Part Eleven, Part Twelve, Part Thirteen, and Part Fourteen by clicking on these respectively.

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The Celtic Tree Oracle, by Liz and Colin Murray

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